the tears leak through my pores

[jemz]

I want to flail over Arashi's latest PV, Happiness.

I want to flail over w-inds. winning the Best "Student Voice" Group Award.

I want to flail over how good Jin looks and sounds on today's Shounen Club.

I want to flail over Pinky and Six Senses.

I want to flail over Hana Kimi ep. 8 and Oguri Shun.

I want to flail over Keita taking off his tank top and showing everyone at the concert shimmeredusk and akahannah went to since he's shy about his body but not his arms.



But I can't.



My beloved dog is dying and currently at the emergency vet clinic.

And all I can think of is the inevitability of death and the impending sadness. With my sister crying since early morning and all day long, I feel like I'm a horrible person for not shedding a single tear yet. Not even when she asks me why I'm not crying.

I am sad. and in shock. She's our first pet ever and my sister doted on her even though she is never home to take care of her.

I don't know what to do or say that could convey just how deeply I feel about things.

Comments

[ilanala]

I wish there was something I could say to make it better, but all I can offer is hugs and love. *hugs lots*

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*clings* thank you, ilana. i feel like i'm in need of a lot of hugs.

[bumped.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry and i hope things get better for you. ):

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

thanks, jakki.

[gimmick-game.livejournal.com]

Rosie....

*holds tight*

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

i know....

[lip-stick-love.livejournal.com]

I know I don't know you very well, but I am so sorry about your beloved pet, and can only convey my deepest sympathy for you guys. I'm truly sorry.

*hugs*

xxx

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

thank you, tia. it means a lot.

*hugs*

[araanaz9.livejournal.com]

*hugs* ♥

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*CLINGS*

[dramedy.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* Oh Honey!!!! *HUGS A LOT*

I'm so sorry. ;-;

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

thank you. *hugs back*

[feigningsleep.livejournal.com]

I'm so, so sorry for you and your family. :(

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

thank you. it's been pretty tough for my sister since our dog was originally her pet. *huggles*

[mousapelli.livejournal.com]

oh, honey, i'm so sorry. Dogs are so tough because they live so long.

*hugs*

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*clings* yah, i knew the day would eventually come but i never expected it to happen soon.

[bluntedge.livejournal.com]

*sends many ♥* ;_;

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*clings to you* ;__;

[marksykins.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie, I know how hard that can be. Love to you and your family. *hugs*

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

thanks, marksy. it's been rough on my sister since our dog was originally hers. everyone is a bit numb right now. *clings*

[darlita.livejournal.com]

I went through this just a few weeks ago with my kitty that i had for 14 years so I know exactly how you feel. It's hard and painful and heartbreaking, but try to think about the good life you gave your dog and that she loves you as much as you love her.

I'm really really sorry :(

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

thank you for your words. i've been thinking that and telling myself that she was well-loved and that she never lacked for anything...except speed in trying to catch the bunny in the backyard.

it helps a little to know that she was happy with us even when we're trying to get over her not being here anymore.

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*clings and hugs back*

it's a bit tough to realize that she'll never be there to greet me at the door everyday or that she won't be snuggling up on the shoes in the morning as i rush out to work.

sometimes, i think the best thing people can say is that they can relate to a loss. it makes me feel like i'm not alone in my grief/pain. so thank you. ♥

[bouncy.livejournal.com]

Oh man. Losing a family pet is so hard. I lost my dog the day after my eighteen birthday and was in too much shock to cry. Dogs really do become a part of the family.

♥ ♥ ♥

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

they do. they're such an integral part of the family after so many years. especially when you've seen them grow from a tiny baby to an old lady.

*clings*

[bouncy.livejournal.com]

*gives you big, long cuddle* ♥

[damiri.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. and how your sister feels. grief can be overwhelming.

[magistera.livejournal.com]

omg, so many *hugs* right now. I know I'm not around ever anymore, but I am still reading flist, and I know what it's like to lose a pet, especially one you've had forever, so ********hugs******** I'm thinking of you, bb.