the tears leak through my pores

[jemz]

I want to flail over Arashi's latest PV, Happiness.

I want to flail over w-inds. winning the Best "Student Voice" Group Award.

I want to flail over how good Jin looks and sounds on today's Shounen Club.

I want to flail over Pinky and Six Senses.

I want to flail over Hana Kimi ep. 8 and Oguri Shun.

I want to flail over Keita taking off his tank top and showing everyone at the concert shimmeredusk and akahannah went to since he's shy about his body but not his arms.



But I can't.



My beloved dog is dying and currently at the emergency vet clinic.

And all I can think of is the inevitability of death and the impending sadness. With my sister crying since early morning and all day long, I feel like I'm a horrible person for not shedding a single tear yet. Not even when she asks me why I'm not crying.

I am sad. and in shock. She's our first pet ever and my sister doted on her even though she is never home to take care of her.

I don't know what to do or say that could convey just how deeply I feel about things.