the tears leak through my pores

I want to flail over Arashi's latest PV, Happiness.

I want to flail over w-inds. winning the Best "Student Voice" Group Award.

I want to flail over how good Jin looks and sounds on today's Shounen Club.

I want to flail over Pinky and Six Senses.

I want to flail over Hana Kimi ep. 8 and Oguri Shun.

I want to flail over Keita taking off his tank top and showing everyone at the concert shimmeredusk and akahannah went to since he's shy about his body but not his arms.



But I can't.



My beloved dog is dying and currently at the emergency vet clinic.

And all I can think of is the inevitability of death and the impending sadness. With my sister crying since early morning and all day long, I feel like I'm a horrible person for not shedding a single tear yet. Not even when she asks me why I'm not crying.

I am sad. and in shock. She's our first pet ever and my sister doted on her even though she is never home to take care of her.

I don't know what to do or say that could convey just how deeply I feel about things.

May you rest in peace

Today, my heart is broken.




Rest in peace, my dearest puppy.

You are the best toy dog a girl could ever have, quiet and mellow and so easy going that everyone who saw you fell in love with you on sight. Even when the rabbit was laughing at you as you chased after her, you were still adorable and tried not to let some whippersnapper of a bunny outrun you, despite the 9 year age difference.

I loved how you warmed my feet up by sitting on them, no matter what the season was. And how you were content to lay like a baby in my arms. I loved how you would always bark for us to let someone into the house just so you could have someone to pet you and give you a lot of attention and love but never bark to let us know who we should be on the lookout for.

I'll miss the sight of you sunning yourself in the backyard, all stretched out on one side with the happy and content air surrounding your body.

I hope doggy heaven is everything you had at home with us.

, jemz

( because my puppy is adorable )