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May. 19th, 2004 03:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jemzhmmm....not as devastated as i thought i would be....but definately a little on the perturbed side..
i just had a conversation with someone who knew "boytoy". Boytoy and i separated a while back....and while i truly think i'm well over him, a part of me is still wishful. I'm not hurt anymore. I've moved on. but hearing that he's dating someone already is a slight shock. made my eyes widen for a moment.
then a hood just seem to drop over my eyes. a million and one thoughts raced through my head. a million and one emotions accompanied them.
then i took a deep breath.
and exhaled. wondering.
how i really felt about the news.
i realized that i was okay with it. esp. if she made him happy the way i couldn't. i hope it lasts for him.
then i realized a small part of me felt angry. angry at him for not making an effort to keep in touch more often. bastard.
ah well...
it's okay. i suppose. we all move on to bigger and different things. for him...he moved on with someone....as for me...i moved on with other things...still bashing on boys tho. *snickers* it's so much fun to do! got back to my anime obsession again....totally obsessed with Naruto.
overall...i don't regret anything about it. It was nice to have a positive experience of a relationship. Shows how crappy the prior ones were. ah well..
i am free to obsess over Hayate Kakashi! dammit..i want a sexy silver-haired ninja for christmas! :-P
i just had a conversation with someone who knew "boytoy". Boytoy and i separated a while back....and while i truly think i'm well over him, a part of me is still wishful. I'm not hurt anymore. I've moved on. but hearing that he's dating someone already is a slight shock. made my eyes widen for a moment.
then a hood just seem to drop over my eyes. a million and one thoughts raced through my head. a million and one emotions accompanied them.
then i took a deep breath.
and exhaled. wondering.
how i really felt about the news.
i realized that i was okay with it. esp. if she made him happy the way i couldn't. i hope it lasts for him.
then i realized a small part of me felt angry. angry at him for not making an effort to keep in touch more often. bastard.
ah well...
it's okay. i suppose. we all move on to bigger and different things. for him...he moved on with someone....as for me...i moved on with other things...still bashing on boys tho. *snickers* it's so much fun to do! got back to my anime obsession again....totally obsessed with Naruto.
overall...i don't regret anything about it. It was nice to have a positive experience of a relationship. Shows how crappy the prior ones were. ah well..
i am free to obsess over Hayate Kakashi! dammit..i want a sexy silver-haired ninja for christmas! :-P
VeilSdeGTO
Date: 2004-05-20 12:12 am (UTC)Re: VeilSdeGTO
Date: 2004-05-20 05:53 pm (UTC)