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[jemz]

hmmm....not as devastated as i thought i would be....but definately a little on the perturbed side..

i just had a conversation with someone who knew "boytoy". Boytoy and i separated a while back....and while i truly think i'm well over him, a part of me is still wishful. I'm not hurt anymore. I've moved on. but hearing that he's dating someone already is a slight shock. made my eyes widen for a moment.

then a hood just seem to drop over my eyes. a million and one thoughts raced through my head. a million and one emotions accompanied them.

then i took a deep breath.

and exhaled. wondering.

how i really felt about the news.

i realized that i was okay with it. esp. if she made him happy the way i couldn't. i hope it lasts for him.

then i realized a small part of me felt angry. angry at him for not making an effort to keep in touch more often. bastard.

ah well...

it's okay. i suppose. we all move on to bigger and different things. for him...he moved on with someone....as for me...i moved on with other things...still bashing on boys tho. *snickers* it's so much fun to do! got back to my anime obsession again....totally obsessed with Naruto.

overall...i don't regret anything about it. It was nice to have a positive experience of a relationship. Shows how crappy the prior ones were. ah well..

i am free to obsess over Hayate Kakashi! dammit..i want a sexy silver-haired ninja for christmas! :-P

Comments

VeilSdeGTO

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry babe! I know the hurt and the anger part. Makes you wanna yell and cry at the same time. I'm here if you want to talk. We can vent and yell and everything in between. *hugs*!!

Re: VeilSdeGTO

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

hey girlie...i tried calling last nite. i will try again later, after work...need a hug right now.

[dropsofme.livejournal.com]

*huggles*
It's a crappy feeling, I know I've been there. Stupid, stupid boys.
You are actually being very mature about the whole thing.

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*Huggles* thanks babe. i'm trying to mature, in my own way. I've always felt that i was too immature for him...but then again...he's kinda immature too. oh well.

[brandywest112.livejournal.com]

You will be fine, you will see.

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

i know...i'm just hanging in there....

VeilSdeGTO

[(Anonymous)]

I tried calling you today. Things go worse! Call me tomorrow if you have time before 6pm. *hugs*!!

Re: VeilSdeGTO

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

oh no! did they!?!?!?

well...i am feeling a lot better than i did two days ago....but i think i'm still worrying over it since i'm not sleeping all that well.

I will definately give you a call around 5pm....when i get off of work. *huggles*