jemz

at the hospital just waiting.

I hate waiting.

All that doubt and uncertainty and the hope that aches and hurts inside your soul.

A time of limbo where you wait for ages without the peace of mind that comes with ignorance or settled knowledge.


My stomach is just churning. It's not my fate that I'm waiting to be changed but a loved one's. Hope is a beating a hard drum inside my chest.



Did I mention that I hate waiting?

ARRRRGH.

SO DAMN IRRITATED.

I spent all week running around at work and trying to absorb how to read code in SUPRTOOL at work. Spent about 50 hours at work. I was totally looking forward to getting a manicure/pedicure as a way of pampering myself for the really stressful week.

Instead, I'm totally pissed off at the job this place did. I'm paying extra for an ugly design AND the lady cut my nails WAY TOO SHORT and then did a cross between square nails and rounded nails. WTF. Seriously. If I said just round the corners of the square nails a bit more so I don't cut myself when I scratch my arms or face or etc, then that means don't turn one side into rounded nails and the other square!.

Totally not going back. There are bubbles in my nail polish and they didn't pay attention to how much pain they were giving me during the cuticle cutting. Shitty, y0.

Instead of being relaxed and happy, I'm irritated even more and I'll be going into work tomorrow totally irritated. Because I wasted money on a shitty manicure. Two weeks before a wedding.

Yeah.

I think I'm going to cool my temper with some cold sake. And buy some nail polish remover.

So totally unimpressed. :| :| :| :|