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Jun. 1st, 2004 07:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jemz*achooooo*
morning sucks...i'm sneezing and sniffling like crazy. stupid allergies...they all came back!
anyways...just wanted to vent a little. my mom totally hates my haircut. she started yelling at me. she thinks my previous cut was better since it didn't make me look fat. but i hated that haircut when i walked out of the salon! i was about to cry when i got that haircut!
this haircut, i totally love! i was really happy with it. mom was just going off on how she could have cut my hair like that if she wanted to and how i wasted money on a cut like this. then she told me that the haircut made my face looked fat.
i was pretty upset so i just retorted back "so i have a fat face..." man....she was on the phone talking to a friend about me in front of me! i was like...damn..if u don't like u don't have to tell ur friend. after all that, she goes off and tells her friend how i'm such a willful child and always talking back. dammit, i'm old enough not to deal with that shit. i have plans i want to do and i'm not gonna be talked about as if i'm a little child. i'm more responsible than that. fuck, if i wanted i could act exactly like my younger sibs and raise hell and cause them lots of heartbreak but i don't. she keeps going on saying how we don't respect our parents and such, well where's our respect?
yeah i love my parents but it's like a double-edge sword. in numerous efforts to satisfy the parents, you sacrifice yourself. when trying to satisify yourself, you sacrifice your parents' will. damned if you do, damned if you don't. sometimes i hate how asian parents are. so restrictive and unseeing.
freakin' a. this happened early evening yesterday and i'm still bothered by it.
kuso.
morning sucks...i'm sneezing and sniffling like crazy. stupid allergies...they all came back!
anyways...just wanted to vent a little. my mom totally hates my haircut. she started yelling at me. she thinks my previous cut was better since it didn't make me look fat. but i hated that haircut when i walked out of the salon! i was about to cry when i got that haircut!
this haircut, i totally love! i was really happy with it. mom was just going off on how she could have cut my hair like that if she wanted to and how i wasted money on a cut like this. then she told me that the haircut made my face looked fat.
i was pretty upset so i just retorted back "so i have a fat face..." man....she was on the phone talking to a friend about me in front of me! i was like...damn..if u don't like u don't have to tell ur friend. after all that, she goes off and tells her friend how i'm such a willful child and always talking back. dammit, i'm old enough not to deal with that shit. i have plans i want to do and i'm not gonna be talked about as if i'm a little child. i'm more responsible than that. fuck, if i wanted i could act exactly like my younger sibs and raise hell and cause them lots of heartbreak but i don't. she keeps going on saying how we don't respect our parents and such, well where's our respect?
yeah i love my parents but it's like a double-edge sword. in numerous efforts to satisfy the parents, you sacrifice yourself. when trying to satisify yourself, you sacrifice your parents' will. damned if you do, damned if you don't. sometimes i hate how asian parents are. so restrictive and unseeing.
freakin' a. this happened early evening yesterday and i'm still bothered by it.
kuso.
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Date: 2004-06-03 06:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-06-03 09:35 pm (UTC)i'll try and give some friends a call to see if they want to go shopping tooo...:-D