waiting sucks.
May. 25th, 2003 12:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jemzi hate waiting.
it sucks major ass. esp. when you're getting together to do something, and someone changes the plans on you. hella sucks. was supposed to play cards aroun 10:30pm....waited til 11:20 for someone else to get there. then waited around some more. then i decided it was no fun watching people eat when i'm not hungry myself. playing cards after watching them eat didn't sound that appealing, esp. when it's about 11:30pm at night and i have to work early the next day.
i wanted to do something...anything...to make the most of the evening. that was the point of switching shifts. so i could do something in the evening...now, i don't know why i even bother. i end up doing nothing. even tried taking a nap. that didn't work becuz of the music that was blasting from the bathroom when my sis showered. i felt hella crappy and very crabby. i was trying to sleep dammit! then i played the waiting game tonite. that sucked ass too...i ended up going back home, wasting gas, effort, and time just to go there to do nothing but wait.
i feel like i'm always waiting for people. Do i want to wait for them anymore? does it make my life feel meaningless as i wait for people to make up their mind, for women to choose what to buy and what they want, for time to fly by so i can go home and sleep?
i wanted to be social.
now i'm just anti social.
it sucks major ass. esp. when you're getting together to do something, and someone changes the plans on you. hella sucks. was supposed to play cards aroun 10:30pm....waited til 11:20 for someone else to get there. then waited around some more. then i decided it was no fun watching people eat when i'm not hungry myself. playing cards after watching them eat didn't sound that appealing, esp. when it's about 11:30pm at night and i have to work early the next day.
i wanted to do something...anything...to make the most of the evening. that was the point of switching shifts. so i could do something in the evening...now, i don't know why i even bother. i end up doing nothing. even tried taking a nap. that didn't work becuz of the music that was blasting from the bathroom when my sis showered. i felt hella crappy and very crabby. i was trying to sleep dammit! then i played the waiting game tonite. that sucked ass too...i ended up going back home, wasting gas, effort, and time just to go there to do nothing but wait.
i feel like i'm always waiting for people. Do i want to wait for them anymore? does it make my life feel meaningless as i wait for people to make up their mind, for women to choose what to buy and what they want, for time to fly by so i can go home and sleep?
i wanted to be social.
now i'm just anti social.
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Date: 2003-05-26 12:45 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-05-26 07:03 pm (UTC)