sleep is awesome

[jemz]

gosh, i'm so tired. not quite a zombie yet. check back on sunday to see if i am. as long as i make the dolla, i don't mind...as much. i feel like i don't really have anything to do on the days i work...i spend it waiting for time to come to go to work. it sucks.

i started thinking more. yes, i know, i know. i've always joked that "thinking is hazardous to your health" and that "thinking is bad for you." :-P so i started thinking again. no, silly. not about serious things. About vacations. i've been envious of friends and family who go off to exotic and exciting places. i can't afford those kinds of vacations, i've been planning to go somewhere on my own. yes, i know. ON MY OWN. god, scary words i just uttered. i don't know if i want to go somewhere to hang out with a friend or go someplace completely new and different and just immerse myself in the culture and life. go to museums. sit around in the parks. see something that place has to offer other than what i can find at home.

this weekend is when we get to meet our mentees. i'm trying not to dwell on it. it's kinda scary to be responsible as the primary listening post for a troubled teen. i don't think i have enough experience. i wasn't a troubled teen. i was a kid that walked around with her head lost in the clouds. i think i'm more likely a troubled adult. ah well. we'll see how things go. i made a commitment to this unknown, soon to be known, teen. i can't back out of it now. it's not fair to that teen nor the person i'm trying to be.

gah, no more thinking! it's bad for you!!! heh.

what to do for the rest of the evening. it's soooo hot outside. the only good thing about working every single day this week is that i get to stay out of the heatwave for a while. i think i'm gonna try to wake up early and jog a few laps around the block before heading to work. maybe that will wake me up and sweeten my disposition. of course, something yummy in the morning helps too. hehe..

gonna read for a while now...maybe go to border's to be a book bum.

Comments

[dropsofme.livejournal.com]

I think that would be very cool of you to go somewhere on your own, you'd probably be more appreciative of things and be able to take in the sights you want to see and not worry about pleasing others.

And that's so good that you're going to be a mentor. You'll be great =D

[bluebyyou.livejournal.com]

You should put some money in a piggybank. By the year's end, you'll be able to afford a trip.