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Lordie this took up a lot of time. XD I didn't do anything for a good portion of the day!

( The Dungeon of Swtjemz! )

I am most amused that my first attempt, I had the wand of Ryohei Chiba. That tickled my funny bone as I'm sure it will the 6 or so people on my flist. XD *SHOULDER SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMMYYYYYYY!!!*

ageha translation

Courtesy of arashiangel who translated this for me when I wanted to know what it was about since the melody touched a tender chord when I was listening to this as I played it at the cemetary along with Gift and Dedicated to You.

( sincerely yours with all my heart.... )

Sometimes, without any warning, I just feel so sad. And then I miss everything and everyone who is not in my life anymore and that just makes me even sadder.

But I am an eternal optimist and the moments after the sadness is the most bittersweet and the most vivid for me.

I think I need to make another trip to the cemetary. Call me strange or weird or morbid, but sometimes, I find myself at utter peace when I'm there. It's a place where I can reconcile the tumultuous thoughts that keep me up late at night and feel the love of those who've passed on.

[cryptic] It's been a year and I still cry for you. I miss all the little things and all the big things. There were hundreds and hundreds of conversations imagined in my head in the days following that fateful day and none I had the courage to voice. Not even now, can I say what I want to say because I don't know what I could have said, would have said, or should have said to make things different. It was the path that was chosen and I am forced to accept that I did all I could do. Sometimes I wonder if my efforts were worth it but in the end, I've accepted my actions for what it was worth.

I struggled for a long time with it and I still feel that I can't accept it even though I try my best to. I'm trying, really trying, to find forgiveness within myself. To forgive him. Perhaps one day, I can. Until then....."I whistle that song for you" [/cryptic]