Meme

Because I got tagged by teh ebil jateshi, I'm just making this a quickie. And this information is probably more than you want to know about me. =-P

1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag 5 LJ friends to torment them for all eternity to do this. Umm...not tagging anyone. I refuuuuuse. =-P But you can do it if you want to.

( Long-ass meme thingy )

B-day shoutouts to...

before I forget......

 

Happy Birthday to jaxindi and foreword !!!!!!!!

May the year be bright and full of fun!

RANT!!!

Oh MY GOD. I am FURIOUS.

What sort of moronic FATHER blames his daughter's suicide on the friends who tried to help her? What fucking right does he have to tell us that we did nothing to help her out of her situation when throughout that entire fucking horrific time, he's done nothing but turn his fucking back on her?

I am shaking so hard with fury and utter sadness. I miss her greatly. Not as much as her parents are but shit, I did everything I could. I don't want to hear the blame being placed on my shoulders for not helping her out, for being with her when she met the destructive ass that ruined her life, for not convincing her close-minded, judgemental ASS of a father for opening his mind and heart and accepting the fact that she needs the unconditional love of her parents to help her through this horrible experience and not constantly put her down.


dammit.


I...I've been at a loss of words all morning long. I'm so damned drained. I've had vile vituperation heaped on my head for hours on end, been at the end of harsh, condenscending looks while I continue to organize and make sure the function went smoothly until I could take it no longer.

Well....let me say something to get off my chest because I simply can't stand it any longer. To the incredibly close-minded, harsh father who's been lashing at me like I'm his personal scapegoat: FUCK OFF. It's not my fault that you did not take the time to know your daughter nor the fact that you FAILED as a father in providing the emotional support she needed. It is not my fault that I tried my damnedest to be there for her. It is not my fault that she dated that asshat of an abusive fucker. It is my fault for helping her get away from him and for that I will always be proud of the fact that I was there for her when she needed it. It is NOT my fault that she felt she could no longer live in this world and chose to end her life. That was her decision alone and nothing I could say or do could have stayed her hand in pulling that damn trigger. I hated the fact she had a gun and told her so many, many times.

So please get off your grief and realize that other people cared about her. I refuse to be your scapegoat any longer.