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hmmm....not as devastated as i thought i would be....but definately a little on the perturbed side..

i just had a conversation with someone who knew "boytoy". Boytoy and i separated a while back....and while i truly think i'm well over him, a part of me is still wishful. I'm not hurt anymore. I've moved on. but hearing that he's dating someone already is a slight shock. made my eyes widen for a moment.

then a hood just seem to drop over my eyes. a million and one thoughts raced through my head. a million and one emotions accompanied them.

then i took a deep breath.

and exhaled. wondering.

how i really felt about the news.

i realized that i was okay with it. esp. if she made him happy the way i couldn't. i hope it lasts for him.

then i realized a small part of me felt angry. angry at him for not making an effort to keep in touch more often. bastard.

ah well...

it's okay. i suppose. we all move on to bigger and different things. for him...he moved on with someone....as for me...i moved on with other things...still bashing on boys tho. *snickers* it's so much fun to do! got back to my anime obsession again....totally obsessed with Naruto.

overall...i don't regret anything about it. It was nice to have a positive experience of a relationship. Shows how crappy the prior ones were. ah well..

i am free to obsess over Hayate Kakashi! dammit..i want a sexy silver-haired ninja for christmas! :-P