strangeness of my life

[jemz]

I've talked it over with someone about a post I had accidentally stuck on friends-lock instead of private. She convinced me that it may be cathartic to "air the shit" out and unburden myself since I can't seem to do it in real life.

so...with much trepidation, I am opening the post to friends on my list.

I'm going to go and hide underneath my bedcovers now.

Comments

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

Was in a similar state last year when I felt completely frozen and yet absolutely thawed out. Found myself a therapist. It's helping, although it also brings up stuff that makes me equally upset but at least I know WHY I am upset instead of this crushing depression. And for some odd reason, while I am thawed out, I am not frozen and that's much better. Seek help. There's no need to suffer.

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

help is something i'm not used to...but have done in the past.

hehe...i just need to stop whining on LJ and just be more active.

*huggles* Thanks for all the great words!

PS

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

Also a big hug!

[bebiteeny.livejournal.com]

Dearest Julia,

I need to see you smile soon..I miss it so!! I know that things really suck now, but if u ever are in town, let's go grab a cup of tea *or coffee for me* feel better soon huN!

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

yah, baby girl. I need to get away and go up there to hang out or something.

I missed you too!!! *huggles*

[dropsofme.livejournal.com]

And I'm trying to deal with it all. Alone. I don't know why I do so but I know I couldn't put the burden on others or even vent to those who can't or won't understand. It's hard because I feel all alone even though I'm surrounded by loved ones. It makes me feel as if my problems are petty compared to others who are going through even bigger hardships. It doesn't make me feel any better but it makes me feel as if I can bear the burden alone

That's where you are wrong though, you don't have to do it alone, and as a matter of face that is the most unhealthy thing you can do for yourself. I realise that the grief I'm going through and what you're going through is different, but they were both sudden and unexpected deaths, and it's ok to mourn. And there's no right way to do that, you do it however you want to. The only thing that helps is time. And chocolate. It's important to talk about how you are feeling though, don't feel like it's selfish if you want to talk about things, it's not, trust me.
*hugs*

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*

i know this is a late reply but just wanted to say thanks for caring and understanding!

*smoochies* you're a total doll.

*gasp*

[happy-hien.livejournal.com]

I'm gone from LJ for how long..and look at what happens! *hugs*.

You know it's been a year and four months, and I am still struggling over my brother's absence. To be honest, I have an inner struggle that has been trying to overwhelm me, that I refuse to let happen. I've told my sister too that I am seeking therapy. (cheap and effective, i say!) I mean, can't hurt to try?

I'm sure you feel very emotional but it's all natural. Let yourself heal, naturally. Spend time for yourself, family, and friends... the happiness will follow.

I don't want to preach or anything, but I'd like to express how I feel and can relate.

Give yourself time. I did, because I'm that type of person who just has to do it alone. Just remember that you can't hide out forever though! If you can vent on LJ, that's all you need. People, like me, are listening to every word.

In the darkest of times do you realize who your real friends are. Things can only get better from here.

I love you, and have you in my prayers.

=].

Re: *gasp*

[swtjemz.livejournal.com]

*smoochies*

love you, darling girl.