dazed and tired
Sep. 27th, 2004 10:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jemzThis entry is a long one...as promised! Read this boring entry at your own risk!
This month has been hectic (as if I didn't mention that before!) for me. A lot of work kept me busy as well as a full social schedule. In fact, work kept me so busy that I had to cancel a lot of my social engagements (which is both a blessing and a curse, since I wanted to relax with my friends but I didn't want to relax in the activities they had in mind or with the company of certain people).
I was dragged through some clubbing times that were fun and yet, not so fun due to the shady crowd that was there. I thoroughly enjoyed the music and had a blast dancing until it got so crowded that my newly found claustrophobia kicked in and drove me out for fresh air away from sweaty male bodies that took a bath in cologne only moments prior to their arrival at the club. I just need to remind myself not to buy drinks for a friend. She gets intoxicated too quickly for me to be able to steer her actions away from flirting with those whom she doesn't need to flirt with (aka the stupid drunk boys that want a dance to get a chance to feel up on ya). I also need to remind myself to bring someone else along who has a higher alcohol tolerance so I can have someone sane to converse with.
*sigh* I know I'm probably going to be dragged to that gay/lesbian bar that the same easily-intoxicated friend went to a few weeks ago. She tried the first time and I was too exhausted to think about it. But, I get the feeling that she's undeterred in her mission. She wants me to go and play off as her gf so all the butch girls won't stalk her all night. She probably wants me to go and commiserate over the loss of a ton of cute asian boys there. Either that and/or drool over them as well. No sense in mourning for what you can't get, I think. Besides, with the right convincing, you can always turn them onto you....they may like it both ways. *shrugs* ya never know. I don't know if pleading exhaustion would work out this time...I've been using that excuse several times already.
Maybe I should go out. Go dancing, drinking, and generally have fun in a dance environment. :-D get dressed up and drinking. At least it will get the urge to dance out of my system.
Speaking of dancing, I got sucked back into listening to Eurotrance, Progressive House, and some Drum and Bass. I has hanging out with a friend yesterday who had a ton of mp3s. I started listening through them, raiding them for my little iRiver mp3 player that i listen to at work. At first, I was raiding his collection for the Japanese, Korean, and Chinese music but then I started going through his "dance" and "trance" collections. So, here I am, listening to a bunch of compilations by DJ Mystik (who is one of my fav. LA dj's) instead of my newly acquired taste of J-Pop and J-Rock (i've been in this phase the entire month so far...ever since![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
bebiteeny's little sister gave me one of Ayumi Hamasaki's cd. *shakes head* what did she get me into....).
However, I did manage to get away from any type of electronica and asian music to delve into some salsa music. Dance class last week was fun since we got to do salsa for the second class. the first class (wedding class) of dance was more waltz stuff. We taught some more intermediate moves). The third class was smoother than the other two since the students picked up what we wanted to do fairly quickly. However, they didn't pick up the dance (we taught Foxtrot) as quickly. Did I mention that I do not like Foxtrot? but I love the music that Foxtrot is done to...good ol' Sinatra. :-D After classes were done, Jimmy and I had a private lesson to teach. While we were waiting, I got my favorite dance in....Hustle! To make it even better, I got to choose the song. I thought it was perfect for the dance too....Hikaru Utada's Movin' On Without You. *happy sigh* it was a great dance! I was spinning around so well. Too bad I only lasted three quarters of the dance before I couldn't move my feet and collapsed on the floor, trying to re-oxygenate my lungs. hmph. That's what I get for not eating that much during the day. Hopefully I can make through the ENTIRE 5 minute song. I just have to remember to eat and not tease Jimmy or else, he'll make me spin so much that I'll see the room try to run around me while I'm sitting on my butt. This week, we're teaching Night Club Two Step in the first (the Wedding class) and second (Nightclub) classes and Tango for the third (Ballroom) class. Hopefully,ant_in_my_pants will be able to go again!!! (I told you that we needed more men in the class! I don't want to be the only leader there! :-P )
I'm going to LA in two weeks. I need a break away from the Bay Area. I need a break away from work. I need a break from the stupid drama that I keep finding myself being pulled into. I'm going off to visit two of my favorite people in the whole wide world down in the City of Angels. Good thing I made sure I wasn't on call for that weekend. My stupid little pager will be hanging out with the candles on my dresser. :-D Knowing my girls, we'll be out and about the town, shopping for cute boys, i mean clothes!, eating great food, dancing our butts off at nite and getting drunk! Who knows. Maybe I'll even see some cute guys to flirt outrageously with. *grins* I can't WAIT!
Random note...I started my Christmas shopping. :-D I have way too many people on my X-mas list and I need to get a head start so I can be able to afford the gifts I want to get people. I have some things in mind already and the only ones that are for certain is my Mom's and bestest's gifts (expensive too....*cries* i need to work more hours!). I need to figure out everyone else's so I can get them wrapped and all done before I run out of money for the Las Vegas trip in December. I want to be done with everything by the first of December so I can concentrate on sending off X-mas cards and baking some yummy cookies. I have a few recipes I want to try out this X-mas...anyone want to try some of them?
Speaking of yummy cookies and food, I find myself back in that strange phase I was in last year. I'm not eating as much as I used to or even as much as I should. I should be thrilled the the lessened appetite since it means smaller meals and so forth, losing all the weight that i've gained in the past years. BUT. I'm back to skipping meals which makes me anxious and worried. I'll skip dinner on the weekdays (unless i go out to eat with friends) and breakfast/lunch on the weekends. It's as if all desire to eat had vanished and I'm preoccupied doing something else. Plus, I have a strict rule with myself that I do not eat past 8pm (unless I haven't eaten much during the day and it's a small meal). I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm a little bit scared that it might be the same thing that happened to me last year since last Monday nite, I was experiencing tummy pains all evening despite the fact that I ate (in hopes that the pain would go away but it didn't). I wonder if my body remembers what happened last year and is making me remember as well (which I think is a silly theory). I can't shake the feeling that my appetite loss is related to my insomnia. ah well. Time will tell....
Hmmm...that was a lot longer than I expected. Let's hope I'm sufficiently worn enough to fall straight asleep. I have to work early manana...*cries* and desperately need the sleep.
Hope everyone is well. I will definately try to do some comments tomorrow. let's hope the server gods decide to be nice and not crash...otherwise, I will spend another day picking up the pieces.
This month has been hectic (as if I didn't mention that before!) for me. A lot of work kept me busy as well as a full social schedule. In fact, work kept me so busy that I had to cancel a lot of my social engagements (which is both a blessing and a curse, since I wanted to relax with my friends but I didn't want to relax in the activities they had in mind or with the company of certain people).
I was dragged through some clubbing times that were fun and yet, not so fun due to the shady crowd that was there. I thoroughly enjoyed the music and had a blast dancing until it got so crowded that my newly found claustrophobia kicked in and drove me out for fresh air away from sweaty male bodies that took a bath in cologne only moments prior to their arrival at the club. I just need to remind myself not to buy drinks for a friend. She gets intoxicated too quickly for me to be able to steer her actions away from flirting with those whom she doesn't need to flirt with (aka the stupid drunk boys that want a dance to get a chance to feel up on ya). I also need to remind myself to bring someone else along who has a higher alcohol tolerance so I can have someone sane to converse with.
*sigh* I know I'm probably going to be dragged to that gay/lesbian bar that the same easily-intoxicated friend went to a few weeks ago. She tried the first time and I was too exhausted to think about it. But, I get the feeling that she's undeterred in her mission. She wants me to go and play off as her gf so all the butch girls won't stalk her all night. She probably wants me to go and commiserate over the loss of a ton of cute asian boys there. Either that and/or drool over them as well. No sense in mourning for what you can't get, I think. Besides, with the right convincing, you can always turn them onto you....they may like it both ways. *shrugs* ya never know. I don't know if pleading exhaustion would work out this time...I've been using that excuse several times already.
Maybe I should go out. Go dancing, drinking, and generally have fun in a dance environment. :-D get dressed up and drinking. At least it will get the urge to dance out of my system.
Speaking of dancing, I got sucked back into listening to Eurotrance, Progressive House, and some Drum and Bass. I has hanging out with a friend yesterday who had a ton of mp3s. I started listening through them, raiding them for my little iRiver mp3 player that i listen to at work. At first, I was raiding his collection for the Japanese, Korean, and Chinese music but then I started going through his "dance" and "trance" collections. So, here I am, listening to a bunch of compilations by DJ Mystik (who is one of my fav. LA dj's) instead of my newly acquired taste of J-Pop and J-Rock (i've been in this phase the entire month so far...ever since
bebiteeny's little sister gave me one of Ayumi Hamasaki's cd. *shakes head* what did she get me into....). However, I did manage to get away from any type of electronica and asian music to delve into some salsa music. Dance class last week was fun since we got to do salsa for the second class. the first class (wedding class) of dance was more waltz stuff. We taught some more intermediate moves). The third class was smoother than the other two since the students picked up what we wanted to do fairly quickly. However, they didn't pick up the dance (we taught Foxtrot) as quickly. Did I mention that I do not like Foxtrot? but I love the music that Foxtrot is done to...good ol' Sinatra. :-D After classes were done, Jimmy and I had a private lesson to teach. While we were waiting, I got my favorite dance in....Hustle! To make it even better, I got to choose the song. I thought it was perfect for the dance too....Hikaru Utada's Movin' On Without You. *happy sigh* it was a great dance! I was spinning around so well. Too bad I only lasted three quarters of the dance before I couldn't move my feet and collapsed on the floor, trying to re-oxygenate my lungs. hmph. That's what I get for not eating that much during the day. Hopefully I can make through the ENTIRE 5 minute song. I just have to remember to eat and not tease Jimmy or else, he'll make me spin so much that I'll see the room try to run around me while I'm sitting on my butt. This week, we're teaching Night Club Two Step in the first (the Wedding class) and second (Nightclub) classes and Tango for the third (Ballroom) class. Hopefully,
ant_in_my_pants will be able to go again!!! (I told you that we needed more men in the class! I don't want to be the only leader there! :-P )I'm going to LA in two weeks. I need a break away from the Bay Area. I need a break away from work. I need a break from the stupid drama that I keep finding myself being pulled into. I'm going off to visit two of my favorite people in the whole wide world down in the City of Angels. Good thing I made sure I wasn't on call for that weekend. My stupid little pager will be hanging out with the candles on my dresser. :-D Knowing my girls, we'll be out and about the town, shopping for cute boys, i mean clothes!, eating great food, dancing our butts off at nite and getting drunk! Who knows. Maybe I'll even see some cute guys to flirt outrageously with. *grins* I can't WAIT!
Random note...I started my Christmas shopping. :-D I have way too many people on my X-mas list and I need to get a head start so I can be able to afford the gifts I want to get people. I have some things in mind already and the only ones that are for certain is my Mom's and bestest's gifts (expensive too....*cries* i need to work more hours!). I need to figure out everyone else's so I can get them wrapped and all done before I run out of money for the Las Vegas trip in December. I want to be done with everything by the first of December so I can concentrate on sending off X-mas cards and baking some yummy cookies. I have a few recipes I want to try out this X-mas...anyone want to try some of them?
Speaking of yummy cookies and food, I find myself back in that strange phase I was in last year. I'm not eating as much as I used to or even as much as I should. I should be thrilled the the lessened appetite since it means smaller meals and so forth, losing all the weight that i've gained in the past years. BUT. I'm back to skipping meals which makes me anxious and worried. I'll skip dinner on the weekdays (unless i go out to eat with friends) and breakfast/lunch on the weekends. It's as if all desire to eat had vanished and I'm preoccupied doing something else. Plus, I have a strict rule with myself that I do not eat past 8pm (unless I haven't eaten much during the day and it's a small meal). I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm a little bit scared that it might be the same thing that happened to me last year since last Monday nite, I was experiencing tummy pains all evening despite the fact that I ate (in hopes that the pain would go away but it didn't). I wonder if my body remembers what happened last year and is making me remember as well (which I think is a silly theory). I can't shake the feeling that my appetite loss is related to my insomnia. ah well. Time will tell....
Hmmm...that was a lot longer than I expected. Let's hope I'm sufficiently worn enough to fall straight asleep. I have to work early manana...*cries* and desperately need the sleep.
Hope everyone is well. I will definately try to do some comments tomorrow. let's hope the server gods decide to be nice and not crash...otherwise, I will spend another day picking up the pieces.
