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[jemz]

*sigh*

in a world full of good things and really bad things, it makes me wonder why i am even alive.

to escape the depressing state of mind, i wonder what oblivion feels like. what being free of being sick feels like. what life without stress, anger and sadness feels like. what life without barriers feel like. i wonder how it is to fly and soar as a spirit....high above the world. or what it is like to be a burning star, a black hole, or a neutron. i wonder if stars could think and feel, if a black hole is always hungry, or if i can teleport instantly from one place to another in the near future.

i wonder if i can escape my emotions or suppress them. i wonder if by suppressing them and worrying so darn much, that it is the sole reason why i am sick. i wonder what it is like for those who are shunned and depressed. i wonder how the homeless can survive the cold winter nites and the frosty mornings. i wonder if "heaven's got a ghetto" and if Tupac is rapping with happiness.

i wonder.